A quick 2012 resolution and no recap of 2011 since i think there is not much to remember.
1) Complete Marathon under 5hrs 30mins
2) Save more (perhaps a reasonable amount of around 20k CASH)
3) Lose a bit of weight (from 75 to 70kg)
4) Try one more time for that Master’s application
I guess i am falling back here once more with not much place for me to shout it out loud. Perhaps I just do not wish to talk to anyone.
Works been fine and I mean the work load. But apparently the people seems “unfine”. Not sure is a case of myself, or a case of ppl really changing.
I really wish I do not need to cover everything and I really hate it when there is no other support. A sentence of “I don’t know anything.” equate to an increase of my responsibility/ workload/duties. Not that I do not want to hold responsibility, but seriously when will the replacement come in and shoulder off a bit? Sales, Ops, and now training!
There is more than 1 staff available who is well verse in the area, yet they cannot afford to let one to go on course? What a stupid reason that renovating is going on, and he needs to be around. Damn, then who going to cover mine? I know i am just pissed off cos of the way thing is brought across to me, and I guess my action is a bit stupid as well. After all, I choose not to reply any emails, though i think I should not disappoint those innocent customers. Sometimes, fury can overcome one sensible mind, and I admit, it overcame me today. My actions today is purely a case of hoping for an explosion and then I can just say it out loud,” I TOLD YOU SO, that I need to be around!” but then again, those actions are pointless and will only result in more damages.
I am proud of my team. Pushing off the excellent recovery for the customer despite the delays caused and I seriously think they deserve something. Customer think likewise and commented,”BRILLIANT JOB!” followed by a “SUPERB JOB!” in 2 separate mails. However I am disappointed with the decision to deem this 2 emails as non substantial compliment. Reason: Only 2 words! Personally I do not need the compliment rewards of a mere $50 bucks. But don’t you think by giving the ground guys for pulling this off, it will boost them up? and what a way to judge compliment, by number of words? Really disappointed with that decision. Perhaps $50 is a lot considering we have yet to achieve any COST SAVING, but still, it don’t save much with that $50!
I guess i am just ranting away with the mind in a mess. The team is strong, and it has to keep going on strong. The response I see delight me and hopefully together we will strive to be stronger and show the rest that without support, the show will still runs.
the day has come.
Changes happened immediately. Nothing fanciful, no major announcement.
I guess all of us is finding it hard but no one is saying much. There is lots to be done, and to say if the future is dull is an understatement.
Fending for oneself is hard and then again, without doing it, how can one grow.
Things improve if there are people who look into their own part in detail, now there is no one to do so.
It is not a familiarized position, just that the shoulder is heavier with seriously no guidance. Perhaps I am left in the comfort zone for a bit too long.
Time will tell, and till then, it may be 2 extreme, Good Bye or Hello.
Of cos Hello will be a better destination to go to.
We shall see, till then, time to work triple hard, to cover what was uncovered, to cover what was left behind, to cover what the guardian used to cover.
With Determination, Success will eventually come.
I guess once in a while i still visit this place. Trying to read back and see what could had been done better.
I think somehow tonight was set perfectly well for a new post with deep thoughts running through. Quiet and peaceful, though a bit tired but the mind is still functioning well for a post.
Seeing how a friend got through his dream, though yet to fully accomplish is a good step ahead. Indeed, to step out of the zone and challenge yourself further. What is a better way to prove to yourself?
I looked back and kind of regret the result gotten. Perhaps a little effort back then, I would had been better off. Perhaps even now, I would had been able to get to the one I truly hope to get in. Though it is kind of easy to accept the rejection but still, it only filled with guilt that efforts put out could have been much more. Maybe a little luck would have help too but then it is just that little to be insignificant to be considered.
I guess i should not complain much cos post life is still not as bad. Though it was not the first choice but still I guess I made the best out of it and enjoyed it thoroughly. Like what was told during one of those HTHT talk, it is indeed pleasing to hear that ppl can see that I have grown, not just a bit but to the point he feel at ease to even let go and let me decide. Of cos I understand despite all this, deep down the confidence is not as high or should I say I am still hiding behind the shadow whenever possible. But how long can I hide?
I guess not long now. 9 more days to the day we are going to be left defending for ourselves till the next guardian come in. But then, will it be a guardian or a troublemaker?
I relish the challenge ahead to deal with it without a guardian but still, I guess I am still too young to fully assume more responsibility than what I am already covering. perhaps a year more or so, I will dare say let me try and do it.
Aside, the daily challenge is set to come on 17 Oct. But the few other challenges are there to stay with no certainty.
1) I guess I really going to give it a try yearly. Even if it going to mean rejection each time. Is not that I do not believe in private, but i really hope for another shot in a local one.
2) The will is there but the physical is not. I guess training 2 weeks but to lose out to aching for days is bad. I tried to push by going on but perhaps it is the long stagnation previously which result in this getting older body to be slow in recovery. Still, we shall see in the near future if things can be improve even for the smallest margin.
3) I guess I am really pushing myself in this and surprisingly the result is amazing. A 2 fold success despite not really living in thriftiness. This shows if I want to do it, it can be even better. Now i am always closer to getting myself a reward without really putting a dent to my bigger plan.
People grow old wiser and more mature. But there are some traits which will always be there to determine a person. Even if the traits become not obvious as previously, they are still in it.
” A mind at peace, a mind centered and not focused on harming others, is stronger than any physical force in the universe.”
-Wayne Dyer
It’s over. glad to have it over.
The feeling of coming home early is so good and it is even sweeter when you are working from 7 am to 10pm daily for 7 straight days.
I know i did not meet the company target but then I still think it was a good event done. double the income as compare to previous year and triple the profit as compare to previous year. However all these is not the most important as I feel the network set out during these 7 days will reap in unbelievable result in future.
I never like sales not even now despite doing it for quite a while but to see the good response and compliments pouring in make me feel that things are on the right track.
The best compliment for a service line is not written nor verbal but rather the action of returning as a customer again.
I hope to see all of them again next year if they come back for it. I hope to build up the customer base and to reap in a better result in the coming year.
Personal target of 2011 is already half complete. Let’s hope the other half will be achievable.
Oct 2011 shall be the month to see it 
July will be a month full of activities.
Finally one full complete circle in my current position. There is more to learn and this time round the bar has been set higher by the management. Of cos it is a challenge, but shall accept it and overcome it with no fear.
Promotion and Bonus month as well. True enough, I failed the criteria. But then again, let’s just say time is not right
Move on with the right attitude and it shall be mine next year.
Still I am proud to say the hard work pay off
One crisis after another. Yes, all the unsightly cans of worms are slowly been dug out. Yes, i can choose not to open them and keep them underground but then, it just means there is no legacy left behind.
I am glad that this one year, I have a few very very good mentors. though each got their different ways of guiding, be it the whack till you die or the protective type, I must say they taught me a lot. Given a no experience no background knowledge and not even a single business sense me, they have mould a rough diamond to one with a bit of an edge. Of cos it is far from the finished product, but i believe, if the rough diamond continue to be shaped, soon it can shine.
Guess this analogy run downs deep in COO when he ask me what i think i am. Hopefully! i hope.
Work is stressed up recently with the crisis but to solve one by one, I am damn happy. Of cos there will be times when the temper is bad, morale low. However a little talk with the GM brought some sense back. When you are confused, just stop, look back at the basics and you will know where to head on next.
Time past, nothing good last forever given the ever changing world. I guess my patience is shorter as the days go by. A case of work stress result in shorter tolerance for other nonsense? Still i hope for a bit more of appreciation. Or the very least, attention.
I hate it when people who do not know anything make noises. Worst still if it is friends. Just blame myself as being stubborn. I refused to take criticism, let alone from ppl who do not know the reason of my doing.
Stubborn or Perseverance. seems like different ppl see this differently. One say i am stubborn but one say i have perseverance. Whatever it is, whichever bring me the better good means i am doing it right.
The urge to invest in myself is strong. Yes, to stand out there and receive another scroll is the top dream now. I guess it is the guilt of not performing to the best of my capabilities during that 3 years which make me have the dream. perhaps now even so when i see that i indeed have the niche to perform well in this role. Or even the pure dream of just trying to be better than others in term of paper. Whatever it is, I shall throw in $20 per year to try my luck till i get it. Even if at the end of the day, the paper might not be require for my advancement. It is just this pure desire to get it that make me hungry for it. Others may be S-11 crazy, but now i am paper hungry.
It start dropping, a lesson learnt. I guess what others said is true, Pay school fee to learn the right way. Lucky the damage is not too huge and overall, i made a tiny bit. Then again, that tiny bit is called Beginner’s Luck.
People who have the same vision will have the capabilities to make thing grow and improve. I really hope i share this vision with both the top and bottom peeps.
Life is unfair, we all know that but to see the guys split due to the monetary differences hurt. Then again, hopefully the little gesture that i am presenting to them will bridge things up. though the final one whose pocket hurts is me. Still, it will be worth it as I will not be where i am without them.
I know I want something. And..
I know I am failing. But..
I shall keep on till the day the result is out. Cos..
I am just plain stubborn in accepting the reality now.
i guess trying to be regularly blogging is hard as the mind always tend to be more preoccupied with things. Personally I believe the people reading this are lesser by the days.
Lots of happening occurs definitely. Be it work, school or even personal.
New Boss, New Start but same old fire fight. Seems like no one can reduce or prevent fire fight to happen.
Rejection. First of its kind and I should be thankful that it happens. Though i shall wait till time is right before trying once more. I believe by then the knowledge and experience would not go against me.
Holidays gone. The long awaited delayed grad trip had just past. Though it was a fruitful trip but it definitely is a huge burnt in the pocket. But then again, the soul searching done during these 2 weeks overweight every other things.
No one is indispensable.
Strength and Weakness. A need to enhance and improve.
Lastly, time to end this post and head back to the books as the exam is just 2 days away and yet the notes look as good as newly printed.
While waiting for a news to break out, I shall wait in pain seeing my bed calling out to me but yet unable to enjoy the softness of it. To make myself forget the pain and also to resurrect this pathetic blog, i shall take some time off to write something down.
The past month was a hectic month. First, it was closing of the FY. Though i am supposedly not involve considering i am a operation guy, but somehow I end up being involved. Life had been nice to me. The number of goods outnumber the number of bads. Now i am seriously waiting for July, and hopefully the numbers is large. At least my gut feel is I deserve a high number.
The one who got me involve in my position is leaving. Though i admit the way he handle some stuff is not appreciated by me especially the loud and deafening voices with a bit of unreasonable tone, I must admit i learn a lot under his charge. Thinking of which, i might one day begin to miss those yelling.
May will be a transition phase once more. A new change in the Top means new adaptation of management style. Also, it will be a month of FUN especially with the highly anticipated Australia trip. Though till date we only book the flight tickets, but at least the rest of the itinerary is more or less fix.
May will also see a possible first time of VOTING. YES. the last time round, it was a walk over. NOW I HOPE TO HAVE A SAY!!!
I am looking forward to May. Fun and serious stuff.! what a month to head into
I guess i am just trying my best to keep this blog alive. Long gone is the frequent updates but now, i try to keep it as occasionally as possible. I guess the first quarter of the year had been eventful till now. Gone are the days when fighting fire is the only things that is happening.
The outdated pics which happen in beginning of the year. Picnic come kite flying cum dog strolling
The first run of the year. I guess this is also the only time i sign up for a fun run.
Evidence of them running (for at least 1/10 of the whole distance)
the zoo trip
ice cream before the start of the run
First unofficial event of the year. Ms “FUNNIE” birthday surprise @ USS!
The result of trying to be smart in not getting a poncho for the water rides -_-”
If ever i lost my job, I think i have the quality to be a construction worker.
What the best way to end the day! Laska Steamboat
The first D&D i ever attend! Theme: OSCAR NIGHT!
We won or everyone won!
The feeling of getting the OSCAR Award is ………
Staff appreciation
Balloon WORLD!
I guess i hit another low in this “short yet feel damn freaking long” working life.
1) It takes damn freaking long hours and effort to transform to what it is now. Though it is far from perfection but the amount of improvement is so much that 1 year ago nobody thought it will happen. Why tear down a just stable system to replace with a new system? Though nothing concrete but given the characteristic of the decision maker, 99% it will go through.
2) I don’t have just one project, I have more than one! 4 in fact and why get me to deal with one more when practically all the deadlines are just the same period?
3) Certain things can wait but certain things can’t. Can someone just remind the importance of prioritizing?
Trivia:
I suddenly pick out the meaning of “HOME” lyrics during this total defence day. Or to be exact the first 2 sentence of the song.
“Whenever I am feeling Low, I look around me and I know…”
How true it is and damn applicable whenever i am in the office environment.
Damn, suddenly I felt so vulnerable.
Perhaps it is time!
